You don't love a woman
because she is beautiful,
she is beautiful
because you love her
♥
I am blogging in the office, not on blogger, not on Windows Live, not on Microsoft, but on a Notepad. Bored.
First day of internship-
Since long I had taken a squeezy train, the feeling sucks, but luckily the train would be less squeezy after Dover.
Going home was no different, especially waiting @ Jurong East station. I'll never get to board the first train which I see.
Adapting to the environment. Some stuffs adpated:
Wherever I go, I need my ID card. When you scan the ID card in the lift, you've to press the level asap, like 2 seconds? If not the sensor will go off again.
Like lol.
My working venue is at Level 5, HR Department is at Level 15, Cafeteria is at Level 14.
Breakfast is free, but you've to reach at 8am.
Monday to Thursday is formal day, Friday is casual wear.
No Facebook, no Hotmail, no Yahoo mail, no Gmail, no entertainment, except Twitter.
Lunchtime is only an hour & it is only @ $2. Quite yummy actually.
My office shares toilet; regardless of genders.
I think due to the big number of computers & laptops in the office, the room is powerfully cold., especially when I was between 2 air cons.
Before the office finished renovating (which is like 1 more month?), I've no proper desk (sharing a desk now), no proper chair (shaky chair now), no proper locker (bag is always on the desk, but its fine with me)..
But it seems that the new office is alot colder. Gosh.
Whatever we do during internship, it may not appear to be familiar to us, & when you give them those ?.? errr, face, I think they'll find you stupid (?)
Whats more? My office is filled with foreigners, I guess? Cause they talk differently. Sometimes they're friendly, sometimes they're impatient.
My conclusion until now is; working in IT Industry doesn't train you to have a good character.
Second day of internship-
Bored to tears. I was supposed to be assigned as a help desk but for don't know what reason, I was doing nothing.
Basically staring into space, almost falling asleep. I've nobody to talk to.. Everybody is busy & I simply have no common topic with the other internship student.
Basically doing my own research, reading msnbc.com, spamming twitter, messaging, blasting music into my ears, ..
Thanks to the boredom, I've already have the thought that internship sucks, internship is boring, internship is tiring, time please blast like a rocket!
Finally, I asked my boss: "Can you assign task for me?" & yay, "I'll, tomorrow, you'll be going in the server room & understand citrix."
Wa.
Third day of internship- [blogging while working]
Don't know what am I thinking, I scanned my ID & pressed level 15 -,- I was supposed to report to level 5 la.
I wore jeans, cause I were told yesterday that I'd be entering the server room which is as cold as a fridge. Learnt something new.
Server room has to be extremely cold as there're many machines inside & they give out heat. The cold air must prevent them from moisture & getting heated up.
Anyway, main point is, when I arrived, another boss told me that only Friday can wear jeans but.. Whatever, din bother to argue. Just nodded & orh.
Still cold here, although boss shifted my table. So again, conclusion, I need to put a windbreaker here. Somebody donate me one.
While waiting for my job, my boss actually told me to "try unblocking Facebook, Hotmail, Gmail, Skype & all sorts of entertainment.." My favorite sentence for the day!
But! Suddenly he came to me & said, "help me take note which I haven't blocked."
"You blocked it!?" Ohoh. So I guess Im helping him to find other entertainments to block ba :( Boss said: "Tomorrow no Twitter already. Hahahas!" O.O
But I can understand la, the company is afraid that workers will send confidential files by using those softwares which aren't under their control.
So well, too bad Im working in the IT industry lo :( So I shall assume this is one task assigned which I have to fulfill.
After lunchtime, I was finally assigned with a task & I learnt something! Great. & indeed, time did speed up a tiny weeny bit.
Moodless for everything.
I still owe godfamily a dinner.
I still haven't called my driving instructor for driving lessons.
I am wondering when I have the mood to watch the movie I want to watch.
I am wondering when will I get on with my life & act as per normal?
Sigh.
...
Some stuffs just really happen at the wrong timing, I hope it won't affect my internship.
Sigh.
I thought we would pull it thru. We've come thru so much, but well, guess both of us are not strong at all.
You hold a place in my heart, love.
"One last hope, but it looks dark."
Labels: really dead tired, you never know what'll happen next
My life is full of surprises, but sometimes it is still a bore…
Surprises that I’ve experienced these few days;
My attachment is no longer at M Hotel.
I am no longer working with Weeling :(
When I was going down M Hotel for uniform fitting, they called & told me I din have to go down anymore cause my LO insisted that Front Desk is not enough & they had no more slots in the IT Department.
How coincidence, the person who interviewed us & the person in-charged had resigned –,-
Oh well, thanks to this last minute changes, I had to walk Jurong Point for like 3 hours. 3 hours sound short, but well, it was really looong.
Before tapping out to Jurong Point, I had a penalty of $2 cause I loitered in the station for too long. I totally had no idea when this rule was set. Stunned.
Then I was jobless when every of my schoolmates knew where they’re going.
Finally, the next day, I decided to chill.
While I was walking to the station, there was a funeral so I thought of walking fast. When I turned my head around, I saw 2 bangalas walking together. At that point of time, I thought it was normal for them to hug each other while walking. But who knows, the next moment, one of them vomited on the spot O.O
At that instance, I knew that Lady Luck lost me. Fine, rushed to the nearest toilet & washed my foot. I thought it was just my illusion, but when I was about to get my hands on my foot, I saw a drip of… Ya, 
I washed, I soaped, I rubbed, I rinsed. I even splashed some water on my jeans, I was literally disgusted. People were looking me like I was inconsiderate cause I wet the floor. But I din care, I just wanted my foot to be clean !
Okay, then here comes the exciting part. Weeling called, she got a job. Not too bad for her, at least near to her house & the pay was reasonable.
As for me, I was still… jobless.
Then LO called: “Hi, is this Felicia? I’ve found a job for you, it is a company at… Changi.”
I seriously din know how to react & I guessed my LO somehow knew I was upset so she asked: “Do you live near there?”
How kind, but NO I DON’T! Gosh.
Mood down, wondering how am I going to survive the upcoming 4 months, countless weekdays, having to reach Changi at 8.30am. Roars!
Just when I was settling down, LO called me again: “Hi, you are not working at Changi anymore. But we’re still finding another company for you.”
So right now… Im jobless again? “Hahahas. Ya, you’re. You’ll only know on Monday, so Monday you don’t have to report to work.”
Not funny –,-
Then again, another in charge called: “Hi, Im Ms Ong. Just to let you know, we’ve found a company at Tanjong Pagar for you. It is at EZRA building. (Where the hell is that?) Reporting time 8.30am to 6pm. & your LO is changed to Ms Leong. (who is she!?)”
Yay! At least something is changing my luck! But Im working with someone I’ve once had conflict with. Lol.
But well, better than nothing! & I still have no idea where is that building, gonna find it in these 2 days.
See, just an ITP can increase so many colors to my life. I guess I’ve a strong heart to take all these inefficiency & surprises 
Starting work on Monday, reporting time 8.30am, have to wear formal cause no idea what is the dress code there. I’ll be doing programming & all stuffs which I don’t excel on.
I wonder how will my first day & first week be. Surprise!
What am I feeling now? Feel like ignoring but can’t.
Find myself dumb to get myself in all these mess.
Loneliness engulfed me every night; especially yesterday.
I think in my life, I’ve done quite enough of silly stuffs like talking to the moon, crying in the train, crying in the station, rejecting people’s accompany, waiting even though I know to no avail, being so inconsistent, neglecting those who care for me, telling myself not to but yet I am still. So many.
So I guess I’ll have to put everything to a stop like maybe, close one eye, harden my heart, getting less sensitive, be more independent, learn to love everything everyone. Yay.
Who’re true to me?
Who’re my true friends?
Who is the one who I can really turn to?
Is this what I want?
How long can I take it?
How long can I wait?
How much do I still have to guess?
How much ignorance is bliss?
When will you understand?
When will we understand?
When will all this fcked up stuffs put to a stop? Like literally STOP.
Revert everything. Revert to the past. Revert me. Revert you. Revert time. Everything. I wanna start anew & I promise to be more meticulous.
Save all those consoles cause myself, I don’t know what I want.
Some stuffs, its not what you want, & what you’ll get.
Tell me, how you feel. Don’t keep me guessing cause Im tired.
“Stop dreaming cause,
love is not a fairytale.”
Labels: messed up
Time to update on my 3 days 2 nights chalet with CADC :D
However, with limited photos cause they’re still spreading around Facebook, shall slowly upload when I’ve gotten them!
First day;
Reached NSRCC @ Tanah Merah at around evening time. Damn the bus, it doesn’t wait. Its like the time interval for each bus is sooo long, it should at least stop & wait lo.
At the end, we rushed & waited, we got to take cab cause the bus just vroooooom off, ignoring the bunch of people chasing like mad behind. Pfft.
BBQ for dinner.
Entertainments like mahjong, cards, Wii, ps3, & foooooooooooood! :D
Sleep; still got to sleep for at least 4 hours, I guess.
Taboo for the win! :D
I know, you can’t understand what this guy is trying to do, right? He is trying to defroze the chicken using a HAIRDRYER –,-
I want one for my house next time!
Second day;
Deprive of sleep, but got to keep myself awake for round up.
Clementi’s Turf City for roundup. Every year, almost the whole place will be filled with CADC.
Irritating Ganjoo, irritating people with crab’s pincer –,-
Song session! :P
Hapyy b’day, CADC?
Different sessions of CADC.
Now, a proper post.
19.04.10
HAPPY B’DAY, KENNY CHUA!
Hope you get FIT soon! 
Celebrated his b’day @ Bugis, but met Jolene first to buy his gift & ofcourse, his forfeit. 
We bought a Picard wallet for him.. & a Collon for his forfeit.
With a packet of Wasabi. Hehs hehs!
Then claimed that they were home made biscuits
His expresssssionnssssssssssss……………….!
We transferred the stuffs to the new wallet, & gave him his old wallet back.
Then ofcourse, the authentic one.
Please Mingshu, don’t poke hole into your wallet just to put your house key *rolleyes*
I’ll slaughter you!
Yay! Happy boy! :P
Gone to type my FTC ‘minutes’ !
“Hope is the most exciting thing in life.
If you honestly believe that love is out there, it will come.
And even if it doesn't come straight away there is still that chance all through your life that it will.
- Josh Hartnett”
