After studying for 3 years of this dumb course, a course which I totally have no interest in, despite the school implementing more options & I got into Hospitality & Tourism of IT. I finally come to a conclusion & straighten out my thoughts, what for getting so uptight & stressed over it? Working so hard now in this course is because I wanna get into an University and obtain a degree for a better future. But come to think of it, if I can’t get a degree, then I shall start working, since even some degree holders don’t hold 100% chances of getting a job.
Then I’m also thinking, if I don’t score flying colors for my diploma, I can’t get into a Government University, but it doesn’t mean that I can’t admit into a Private University, only that the choices of courses might be lesser, I guess? & if its lesser, there is also a chance of getting into a course which I don’t like again.
So actually, I’m getting a lil bit of the heck care attitude with my final papers now, not getting all the points into my head & acting smart by spotting questions. Its like, see the paper, & see what to do.
Verge of giving up & don’t feel like studying at all. I don’t like to study, I don’t have a potential in it & it seems like I can’t friggin’ study something I’ve a bit interest in, since secondary. Secondary, I wanted F&N, then I got D&T. Polytechnic, I wanted Early Childhood, I got into Information Technology which was my last choice. University, I’m still searching meticulously for something I like & with a bright future. Back to the point, I don’t like studying, others too, but why the others can just quit studying & start working while I’m studying like dog now?
I’m a girl, different from a guy. A guy has to work hard no matter what cause he has a family to support in the future, be it his own family /his parents.
As a girl, I can just simply start hunting for a rich guy & get married with him if I’m lucky enough. If I’m not fortunate enough (like always), then I shall grab a job & only have to support myself! Yah, I know marrying a normal income guy can also support me, but that is provided that I’m okay with not leading a taitai life. Hahahas. Cause if I marry a normal income guy, I also have to work in order to support the family together, then it defeats the purpose of not studying. So also, if I’m not capable in supporting a family, then I shall not marry.
Yah, I’m supposed to study now for my paper later, like in 4 hours time, but I’m here blogging what I’ve been thinking. Lol.
This world is just full or realistic & fake people, you’ve to accept it.
“ Just trust yourself,
& you’ll know how to live”
Labels: life
Bought a pair of bedroom slippers from Charlie Brown Cafe @ 313 ♥
Gifts ♥
Craftholic plush toy. Its super comfy & with many many cute designs !!
I don’t know I’m suagu or what but I’m very amazed with how they wrap the toy.
Vacuum plastic, sweet wrapper & nicely tied ribbon with a lil card to write down your wishes.
Sticky with lil heart shapes which glow in the dark. Nice
Sad to say, Finalyearproject’s presentation din really go smoothly yesterday but well, finally it is over.
No more reading those complicated codings.
No more having to fill my schedule project with Finalyearproject’s deadlines.
No more having to stay in school everytime lessons ended.
No more staying in school till the sky turns dark.
No more taking dumb screenshots & writing report for dummies.
No more having to search for help like dog.
No more enduring with people’s temper.
No more complaints.
Hopefully, hopefully, I can at least get a B+. I need it to push my GPA up cause I’ve no confidence in my coming papers.
2 more weeks to my papers & yay, enjoyment before having to worry what job I should get/ what course I should study.
“ Sometimes life gives you the best test
before you’ve had time to learn the lesson”
Recently engaged with Finalyearproject & Chinesenewyear.
So updating my life once in a go now.
Gifts I’ve bought recently (;
Yah, why ar why, but my eyes are getting tinier & dark circles are more obvious during Chinesenewyear.
Adorable lil baby Faith ♥
& Mummy is so eager to let you fall in love with Hellokitty. Hahahas.
Chicken rice @ Boon Tong Kee.
Charlie Brown Cafe @ 313
In school now, rushing Finalyearproject. Haven’t stayed in school till so long since the last semester, I guess…
Drained, but don’t feel like going home.
Depressing. Only you can make me feel like this. Only you can make me feel I’m like a fool. Only you can change everything with a snap of a finger.
Everything seems different, but still feels the same, isn’t it?
But, so what? Maybe. Fate controls everything.
Din know in sucha short time, you bring me up & throw me down so easily. As you like.
Tomorrow. 10th.
“ The day you learn how not to cry
is the day you learn to hate.”
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