You don't love a woman
because she is beautiful,
she is beautiful
because you love her
♥
I was late for work, thanks to my phone.
When I woke up abruptly, I was shocked to see the sun shining through my curtains.
'Oh shit!' Looked at my phone, 'Shit lah! Why isn't it not functioning?!'
No time to check out the time, but rushed to the washroom. Oh no, Bro had to rush for school.
Alright, I think.. school is important for him now & he is speedier than me. Hahahas.
When I reached office, it was past 9am. 'Hopefully my boss hasn't reached & nobody will ask me.'
But well, who'll believe my reason of being late? Phone hanged, Bro snatched toilet. Lol.
Whatever, I overslept, okay?
While working, msn-ed with Cyndee Hon & somehow we got into this conclusion.
Her: Love's like a game.
Me: Yah. Game... You get addicted, you die.
Her: Yes, & you spend most of your time in it. Once game over? That's it.
Me: Yah, you'll be lost, unsure of what to do next.
Me: Buy new game, maybe? Lol. But make sure you don't get addicted again.
Isn't it so true?
After work, wanted to stay outside to chill but lazy to search for people & the sky looked as if it was going to pour heavily sooner or later.
So yah, roamed around Yew Tee, packed lunch & home.
Have you ever wondered why a person can affect your moods so much,
so much & so deep that you don't even realize what you're doing.
What you're doing may not even be what you're thinking.
Maybe it is matter-of-factly that the person meant alot to you. Meant so much that you already don't give a damn of what you're to him.
For me, Im trying hard, so so so hard that I could suffocate, to lose all the memories relating to him.
Maybe he is doing fine, maybe he is worse than me, I can't be bothered anymore cause I can't get to know what he is thinking.
People who aren't close to me may think Im hard to understand, hard to understand what I want actually.
But for my close friends, they know what I really want. It is just so simple. I expect you to know, but well, maybe you know, but you just don't want to face it.
There're just millions & zillions of words I want to tell you, let you be aware.
Not hoping for your agreement but at least, I want to let you be aware that the girl you love,
never change.
Ohyah, to shut some smelly cows' mouths, make sure you know what & who you're talking about.
Make sure it doesn't get into my ears, cause when it does, hohoho. The word 'polite' will be erased.
If you've any doubts, just ask me directly, don't have to go around asking/ discussing. I welcome any questions.
Okay, the feel of drinking is back.
"If I stop thinking of you,
will you be gone to me forever?
-can i?"
Labels: if time were to rewind, will you...
Monday was still okay. Although there wasn't much tasks, but I spent my time chatting with the other intern & reading my storybook.
Currently, we're sharing a long table. Goooood! I can consult him easily without using Office Communicator & can simply disturb him without walking into another room.
Hahahahas!
However, it is colder! Nono, not cold, its freeeeeeeezing! I can't see where the cold air is blowing out from but I just know that Im trying hard not to shiver.
I seriously need a warmer/ heatpacks! =s
After work, caught up with Jolene, Calvin & Kenny for dinner @ 313 Somerset.
Actually decided to have Ramenten @ Far East instead but I find it quite dumb cause I expect to have something delightful in town.
So, Calvin introduced The Handburger! Be it guys/ ladies, the portion of the set meal will definitely satisfy your growling stomach.
I like the part which I have to eat it with utensils! Everytime I want to eat burgers with a fork/ knife, people will start commenting that Im weird.
Lol. I know I know. I should eat burger with my mouth 'AHHHHHHHH', WIDE opened, but my mouth simply refuses to.
Either the ingredients splatter everywhere/ I'll hear my friends saying: "Hey, you wanna leave some for supper?" (points to lips)
Some my even just pass me a tissue automatically. Lol.
Lol. How embarrassing, no difference from a kid learning how to eat porridge.
So yah, the size of the burgers at The Handburger is clearly stated on the shop's name.
Over there, I tried the Chicken Caesar (Y) Trying act one healthy, I ordered Mixed Green Salads as my side dish (N). I can't stand the weird sauce they provided.
So I tried eating just the vegetables; RAW vegetables. I don't know which part of my nerves are faulty & I actually ordered what I normally loathe.
They're friggin B.I.T.T.E.R!
Then again, I think, never order salad as your side dish as in between the burger, lies big pieces of raw 'leaves'. Lol. You'll get sick of it.
Instead, though common, but try the fries (Y)
Did not get to capture the yummmy burgers that we ordered but well, burger lovers, check it out!
Walked to Far East with a bloated stomach & hurrily bought a pair of heels. Yes, hurrily & I've a feeling that it is quite loose now.
oh well, gonna spam heel grips, hopefully they work nicely.
Not forgetting, dessert! Ah Chew's Dessert @ Bugis, somehow becoming the frequent spot for dessert.
Introduce me more desserts, please! I always think that you'll never feel full/ sufficient for dessert.
Got home at around 12am, bathed & slept immediately. Fatigation.
Today, work again. Forcing myself to wake up so early is soon becoming a norm & I hope this torturing procedure could come to an end asap! :(
Ohwell, when I've reached the office, I realized both my entertainer are on MC! :(
Gosh, dull.
Desperately looked for people to lunch with cause I indubitably mind having to listen/ discuss work even during breaktime.
Therefore, went to school & had lunch with clubmates. Yes, the sun was blazing hot & I had to walk to & fro.
Imagine walking under the sun with long sleeves, long leggings & a pair of heels. If you wondering why am I covering myself, this is because of the cold office.
Little did I know that I'll have to travel to school for lunch...
Legs hurt & perspiring like nobody's business. When cooled down in the office, I felt like sleeping. Lol.
Hopefully I'll not experience another day like this. I think I almost become a mute. I think.. For today, I had only spoken 5 sentences in the office –,-
Overdue but this is a peekture of my desk when I was sitting outside.
Busy & packed. Colleagues are treating my desk as a storeroom. Walk past, “Felicia, I put here awhile ar.” Then the awhile is never come back & collect back already.
Whereas now, the new room, new desk, although shared one, but cleaner.
Love when you got the chance to cause once you let it go, don't expect it to come back all in pieces.
Not looking back, at least I'll try very hard to.
Looking forward, but with a change of perspective. I finally realized the easiest & most cruel reason for someone to change is..
changing for/ due to another party. It is doesn't have to take alot of time, neither reasons nor courage, you just change.
& the miraculous part is changing unknowingly.
Don't ask me why I don't smile oftenly. Cause I simply don't find it a need to.
When you smile, you're just showing: Im an easy target to bully.
When I smile, don't ask if it is a fake smile. Cause if it is, you can see it.
If you can't, then Im just hiding it well.
When I laugh, don't stare at me. Cause thats when Im really laughing my hearts out.
If you find me laughing non-stop, don't stop me, cause I rather laugh till I die.
"Remember, if you break up with someone,
it is only because there is someone else waiting for you."
Labels: slap me awake
Labels: follow your destiny
I finally got the stuffs I needed from IKEA! (Y)
Afterwhich, had dinner @ IKEA with family. It is always a sumptuous meal whenever with my family.
Imagine having 6 trays of food in IKEA alone! Gosh.
Raw salmon & chicken drumstick from IKEA is savory, but not the chicken wings.
Sunday was Fathers' Day, but did not celebrate it cause 2 days after Fathers' Day is my Dad's big day.
He thought we forgot about his big day, how would we?! Surprise!
Fruit almond
Pig trotter’s meesua
Ignoring my cake, obsessed with Viwawa :(
Both of them ar… Tsktsktsk. Snatch people food only. Actually its because I don’t like pork X:
Curently watching a Korean drama- 灰姑娘的姐姐. Cinderella Sister.
It is not a very nice drama, but then I have the urge to continue watching.
Every episode makes me cry, or rather, the actresses cry easily in every episodes.
Next movie to catch- The Legend Is Born: Ip Man.
Tuesday, went Funan IT Mall for lunch. Actually they wanted to have Ajisen but the restaurant disappeared.
So walked into Paradise Inn, the JayChou poster outside attracted me. "Stand to win a ticket with every $100 spent!"
Though I know chances are slim that we'll spend $100, but still try my luck lo X:
When we were halfway thru eating, I heard the table behind me rejecting the chance to win JayChou's tickets!
Ohmygod. How I wish I could tell the waitress: "Hey! Actually the lady behind me is my grandmother, I can participate in the lucky draw on her behalf!"
What annoyed me was what the lady said. She actually said: "I don't know JayChou, he also doesn't know me, why do I want it?" Ohmygod.
JayChou leh! You want to know then know ar? Lol.
Okay loh. First classic scenario. Imba. Bwg.
Anyway, I really wonder what my department is busy with. I've to answer phone calls now & help users with problems.
However, I've no access to loadsa stuffs; like resetting passwords, access to directory... So basically Im just a message conveyor.
Butbutbut, whenever I convey a message, everybody seems to have the bochap attitude & busy with their own stuffs.
Users will then flood the helpdesk phone asking why hasn't anyone assisted them.. What could I say?
Oh! My department is busy currently. Then they'll reply in a sarcastic tone: "Everybody is saying they're busy." What am I supposed to do?
"Okayokay. I'll ask someone to help you now & get back to you again." I've been repeating this sentence for don't know how many times.
Not to say they're annoyed, I think I am too. Z.
Irritating. Feel like plucking the god damn phone cable *roll eyes*
Monday, I almost broke into tears. When I do that, theres only 2 reasons- stressed & helpless.
This time Im fcking annoyed & helpless by the shitty & the busy-with-your-own-thing attitude.
Argh. Bth, I think Im gonna quarrel with that retard soon.
Okay, nevermind. Yesterday, I got ticked off by a COO, thanks to that retard.
I know Im god damn harsh saying he is a retard but well, I seriously had enough of his crap. I don't mind having 5 people calling me retard as karma.
I din it was a COO who was calling so luckily I was in my top notch attitude.
User: "Hi, Im trying to install a software- Marine Navigation but its blocked by Watchguard."
Me: "Give me a minute." (talked to retard) "This user wants to install a softward but can't"
Retard: "Yah, cannot be installed, blocked."
Me: (i was thinking, DUH! I know its fcking blocked lah, idiot) "Err, its blocked."
User: "Okay, thats not a very good answer. I know its blocked."
Retard: "Tell him to raise a request on the Service Desk, you know? The one I told you?"
Me: (wtf?! is this the best solution you can give me?) "You can raise a request on the Service Desk."
User: "Okay, fine, forget about it. Complaining on the Service Desk is useless!
hanged!
As you can see, I was like robot message conveyor, I can't do anything.
Then all the retard knows is service desk service desk. Wts. Let alone the user, I think its useless ttm too!
& see how the way retard answers. Answering the obvious, he is like repeating what the user was complaining!
How can I not be aggravated?! How can I not be furious?!
I realized the rate of spouting vulgarities is increasing in me since the day I join this company, be it verbally or physically.
I don't do it often, only when Im god damn frustrated, irritated, agitated, infuriated....
No doubt, Im sick & tired of this attachment.
Today, sudden downpour. Really heavyheavy rain. When I heard the sound of the rain, I couldn't believe it.
So I dragged & dragged till the rain gets slightly better, really slightly. Even my daiso yellow umbrella din shelter me totally.
Blast my iPod, hoping that the thunders won't scare me, but when I see the lightnings, I'll go >.< Shitshitshit.
Luckily I brought extra shorts to work, my jeans was drenched! Imagining walking in a pool of water for almost the whole journey!
From house to station, from station to work. Slippery & disgusting lah.
Dizzy, cold & sleepy during work, thanks to the huge downpour.
Yes, this is defintely a post full of complaints.
Okay, some pictures to chill myself
Spectacular isn't it?
I love the second & tenth ones (:
“Relationships are like glass.
Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than
try to hurt yourself putting it back together.”
Labels: weaker
Let me just start off with photos which Max owed me.
@ Henderson Wave. I simply love the spectacular night scenery there. A perfect spot for chilling, drinking, dating, catching up…
However, it will only be the best if you have a car & you don’t frequent washroom. Hahahahas. I just realized now, there is no washroom in the surroundings.
@ Holland V’s Cold Rock
@ Suntec City for COMEX.
@ Pepper Lunch for dinner.
Shopped @ town. Gosh. Both of us just couldn’t resist shopping when out together. GG. Money waving byebye to me in a day. *slaps head*
Max is totally a man in disguise, he is totally a woman inside; a wild shopaholic!
Obviously…
for Pepper Lunch
“A love declared but untested is no love at all.
Love must be run through the fires of trial, purifying and refining it.”
- Sunshine Stuart
