The almost
Saturday, June 27, 2009 12:51 AM
Cherish what you have now, you don't know what the future holds. If you've made a mistake, learn from it.If someone is to forgive you, trust them, they'll lead you the way.Learn from your experience, don't give up easily. Never say die, cause die won't actually solve everything. does all these really mean what they mean? sigh.
Can we really not look at the past & look forward easily? It sounds easy especially when someone is there to support you; maybe not only someone, is many of them...However, it is already very hard. What past is the past, but it did happen, how can I not look at it? I close my eyes, I wonder how bad have I been. I tried to shut my brain, but why do good memories still recur? Start all over again? Turn over a new leaf? Forgive & forget? Are these just words pleasant to ear? You gave me a chance, I gave myself a chance, but still I shake with fear- confidence.Can I really be what you want? Can you really accept what I am? What if your effort turns to waste?
I look like a lost girl in the jungle. Where are the exits in my life? Where're they? How can I escape from this darkness, this emptiness? What do I want? How to I say? Why am I here? When can this end? Questions, questions, just like an inquisitive child bothering her parents with several head cracking questions; or maybe there are no answers.
Your eyes, that cold but forgiving eyes .. They make me guilty, yet gives me warmth. What're you? Who're you? Why can you control my emotions so easily?
Do you believe in Fate? Fate brought us together, Fate tortured us, Fate pulled us away, Fate pushed us back... Fate told us, reminded us, this is Fate.
Whats done is undone. I really believe this. You hurt that person, you hurt. Even if he forgives you, you know you hurt him afterall. You loved the wrong person, you regretted, but you did love him afterall. You trusted her, but she betrayed you. Even if he trusts you again, you can't possibly tell yourself that you've done nothing wrong.
Almost. Almost. Almost.
This is what I feel about my life. Humans.
no date, no day, no time. always thinking about this."love hurts,
but yet sweet"
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